Virtual Dreamer

The Bane of My Existence

For most of my life I have been chasing sleep. Insomnia truly was the bane of my existence. For me it is like a greased pig as it always wiggles out of my grasp. My particular issue, as it turns out, is falling asleep. Once I am asleep... I'm asleep. Don't bother trying to wake me up. I do not wake up after a short period. If I happen to arouse in the middle of the night I can fall back asleep rather quickly. But it's the falling asleep part that's my problem. My 'alpha' brainwave state (relaxation state) appears fine. It is my 'Theta' brainwave state that does not seem to function properly. Deep relaxation Theta waves are produced in our big brains when we are on the verge of sleeping. It is that 'daydreaming' feeling one might get when looking out a window on a rainy day or lounging by an ocean or pool. When my brain goes from alpha to theta brainwaves something triggers a response that wakes me up and does not allow the natural progression to 'delta' brainwaves or falling asleep.

Hiking Could my insomnia be an anomaly with my brain? The tinnitus in my ringing ears? A deep seeded bad memory from childhood? Maybe it's the fact that I have a deviated septum?  I have made all the rounds to the doctors and clinics. I have seen neurologists, psychologists and hypnotists. No help... just more pills. Many years ago, recognizing my particular problem,  I made a recording that 'emulated' the theta brainwave experience. It was a rough version of what I now call 'Snowy Mountain Hike'. I visualized the scenario through the relaxation sounds I had mixed myself. Hiking in the woods, snow falling, wind blowing, getting lost and finding shelter then starting a fire. Surprisingly, it worked. I slept. I SLEPT!

I am not sure if it was the nature sounds or the visualization process that did the trick. However, I know the combination of the two created a new relaxation audio genre that five years later became this site. Why did it take five years? Because I had a life. I was not even thinking about making relaxation CD's as an vocation or even an avocation.  But, over time, one thing led to another and here we are.

P.S. You will notice if you look at Snowy Mountain Hike that there is a vocal and non-vocal MP3 version. My early recordings never had a vocal track and I am thinking about removing all the vocal versions as they are pretty much self-explanatory.

Insomnia can be an indication of a serious underlying health condition. Our opinions are in no way intended to be taken as medical advice. If you feel your insomnia issue warrants it please seek the advice of a qualified physician.


handI have written extensively over the years about the process of falling asleep and have sorted my journal into four areas of interest.